wow, where to start.
and if you're reading this, may you click right on up at the red x in the corner and go away. don't behave like a child, then stalk me like one too.
first, i'd love to start by saying that this whole 'being right' thing is real bullshit. I mean seriously, can I be wrong one time?
casino reading this blog was a mistake. apparently reading about lucky and my experience with him the other night out was completely unacceptable. he didn't understand why he wasn't "notified" that a guy hit on me in a bar.
yes, i'm serious. yes, I wish I wasn't.
well, perhaps because i wasn't hit on. because that's how lucky is around me. shit, read this blog. the man behaves silly around me. we have yet to figure out why, though scientists are studying around the clock. and perhaps because i'm a single woman.
there were tons of other things that apparently bothered him, but I wasted enough of my time last night talking about them with him. >.< so this morning I sent him a text telling him that I believed he was very unhealthy and that things with us were not going to be moving forward. started another little tiff, after I got on facebook and saw him being all pitiful, and he ended up calling me all manner of things. so, there we go. fun times.
he was an okay fella. I did really like him. I wasn't attracted to him physically all that much, but looks don't really matter to me anyway. people look more beautiful to me the more I love their personality. and he had a great one. until this.
hours of back and forth. some of the stuff he said really blew my mind, i'll tell you. especially-
I want you to be my wife.
ok. well, that's totally normal. just after I got that one, I stopped responding. after everything, all the stress and the headache this mess brought on, and over LUCKY, for christs sake?!
so what did I do?
where was the first place my mind went, eh?
invisibles, meet Lucky.
he called me when he was heading home and there I went. we had a nice night. we sat at his place for a while, talking and laughing our asses off at his story about shopping with past & Barbie & their mother the day before. then we went to walmart to buy the first season of game of thrones because apparently I committed a sin by not seeing it yet. we came back to my place and settled in to watch it. we both fell asleep sometime after 2. I woke up, made some coffee, woke him up, took him to his house to get ready and then to work.
like I said, it was nice. calm, peaceful, fun. and now I have a new show to be addicted to.
this afternoon Barbie came over and we ended up at lucky's this evening. watched some more game of thrones, and now i'm home. and he is torturing me, sending me screenshots of the show & bragging that he's still watching it.
so, besides the drama cause by love-obsessed casino, it's been a pleasant 24 hours. and no matter what happens in the coming weeks, i'm going to handle it as well as I can. because by the end, things are going to be very different. good or bad will have to wait for then.
toodles, loves.
update- had some reflection in the shower, so i'm adding this last bit in here.
there were many things casino said to me that were not cool. that were rude and thoughtless. and downright uncomfortable coming from someone who'd met me one time.
but maybe, is it possible, that even though I reacted fairly blasé and affirmative about my non-involvement with lucky, that his anger and dislike of lucky made him instantly less attractive to me? that it made his words easier to see as rude and thoughtless?
by instantly knowing that he disliked him and would make seeing him a problem for me, did that instantly kill whatever was brewing inside of me?
I guess I really have some stuff to work out, huh? otherwise I feel like this may not be the last time.
oh & I did talk to mr. Kramer a bit last night and today. he is quite a sweet fella. I definitely see him becoming a wonderful friend. :))
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