isn't (day) thirteen unlucky? yeeah..

I woke up on time this morning, i woke up pain-free. that was positive. and found out that our town was covered with snow and ice, meaning school was cancelled. that was also positive. it meant I got to go back to sleep. but for some reason, before i did, I sent lucky a text while half-asleep. this led to him and i sending a few back and forth when I woke up a few more times. then, at 1, he said he was coming over to drink coffee. as soon as I read it, there was a knock at my door. he wasn't kidding. so we drank coffee. we watched supernatural. we talked and joked. then, a few hours later, I took him home.

 

apparently their tv and internet is out. so, I offered to let him take some movies with him. he declined. but when we got to his house, he asked me to bring him some. i declined. normally, I take him to his AA meetings during the week, but he said he wasn't going tonight. thus, I had no reason to get back out. so i came home. and i haven't left. it hasn't stopped him from texting me the entire time, though. until I finally responded and asked him if he for sure didn't want to go to his meeting. no answer now.

 

I had a plan. a way to stop all this confusing, stupid, leading on bullshit. however, it's a little impossible to carry out a plan when the other person is MIA. so maybe the best plan is no plan. maybe I should just stop. I mean, i'm not in any kind of relationship, but the continuous back and forth stupidity is way too much for me. I really just want to be done with this. I thought I could keep him even though I lost Past. but maybe it's time to say goodbye to both of them..

 

(in a side note of dashing Karma, apparently Past's house has been infested with lice. her oldest has it, which means all three of them could possibly have it soon. I feel it is no coincidence.)

 

I might be back around later, to do some more bitching, but right now I just wanna rest. feeling pretty sick to my stomach (possibly because I haven't eaten all day but still taken all my meds, oooops. I really have a problem with forgetting to eat.)

 

possibly toodles till tomorrow. <3